Tachikawa NO JIRETTAI BURO-GU!

I’ve never known what I’ve wanted. Its always this..vague perception..lets face it. I still am. I don’t fuckin’ know what I want in life. Pretty sure most of you aren’t either. Heck, I don’t even know what I wanna write for my blog anymore. I have this naaagging feeling there’s something of substance, something meaningful to write, but when I put pen to paper, its all BLANK. I’ve ran out of inspiration goddamnit! I’ve had to pound ever sliver of ink I used this paragraph OUT of the fuckin’ pen. I’m probably better off pounding..umm..someone. or something like that.

I feel like my brain’s slowly slipping away. Atrophy is setting in. I fear for my sanity. I’ve got so many things on my mind…like what’s my direction in life currently?..or my thoughts on singlehood and why the f* I’m still single. or like is there something stuck in my teeth right now? Small and mundane stuff like that, ya know?

Maybe I’ll try to overcome this one way or the other. I’ve always never let sleeping dogs lie, why start now?

Ok. Lets see. Baby steps.mmm. What am I going to do after my conscription (a.k.a. National Service). I’ve got like, 9 months to go and stuff. So many ideas have been thrown up into the air (and shot to pieces like a fuckin’ clay pigeon), and I’ve fairly much decided to break free from current ‘trends’of the traditional Singaporean educational cycle, i.e. Kindergarden -> Primary School -> Secondary School -> Junior College, Polytechnic or the Institute of Technical Education -> University -> Mindless slave of society).

Instead, I’m gonna pursue one of my interests: Languages. I love languages. Understanding a foreign language just gives you this fuzzy feeling inside! First up, Japanese, followed by Chinese, Korean & Arab, in no particular order. And I’m not gonna do it here. Japan here I come! I’ve been doing some research..and I feel like maybe a 1 year stint should suffice. A 100% immersion program could do me some good. Its not gonna be cheap, but hey, there’s a solution to everything..

Speaking of which, my friend Naf just came back from a 4 month backpacking trip from the States. It changed his life. The experiences have made him a better man, and you can see it from the way he talks, the way he acts. I greatly envy this dude. I’ve always wanted to travel. See the world, ya know? Meet different people, experience the cultures & have a ball of a time! I’m definitely gonna be travelling the world, just you wait and see! I may never find myself a girl to call my own, but I’m sure as hell gonna find myself one hell of an adventure!