Random Fandom Thoughts of going Nots (nuts.)
by Reizou Tachikawa on Jun.25, 2006, under General
Wow! It’s been sooo long since I blogged. I don’t know why…I’ve become so detached from so many things lately. I haven’t spent a single night at home for the past 3 weeks. I feel so..I dunno, empty? Life’s just kinda meaningless for me right now. My fellow commanders talk about their girlfriends, about how they just got attached, how their girlfriends are given them problems, ways on how to kill a suffocating, damn fuckin’, and so I quote ‘ bitchy bitch’, that kinda stuff, ya know? All I can do is offer them wise nuggets of advice (mmmm…nuggets.) & a listening ear. That’s the best I can offer, with, well, all the NOTHINGNESS that’s happening in my life right now. It’s a fuckin’ flat plateau right now, well, ‘cept for the damn fuckin’ good trip down to the Ministry of Sound a week ago (on ladies night, nonetheless 
), managing to de-compose 3 out of the 6 mins of the first movement of Beethoven’s Moonlight Sonata (at long last, I got THAT far). The final outcome is, well, damn obvious: a steep drop into the oblivion (that’s why we call it a plateau, you numb nut).
I just want some, ya know, excitement? ..not that kinda excitement, dammit. Ok, maybe I wouldn’t mi..pffft! That’s besides the point. Something to look forward to, ya know? Not that I don’t have family & friends and stuff…they’re cool & all, but ANOTHER kind of excitement, you know? Like maybe..umm…let me put it in a oh-so-chauvinistic manner: the thrill of the chase? Those chemical reactions induced when you’re after a girl, that feeling of love, that person belonging to you and you alone. NOTHING can compare to that. But, sigh, oh well, nothing like that for me. Just plain old boring life for me. sigh. I need to go find myself some! or maybe I’ll just go turn gay or something. HAHAHA! .*ahem* NOT. All those sayings that say people are not supposed to be looking for love, and (wham!) bam!, they find that special someone when they least expect it. Maybe I’m doomed to live my life out alone. sob. NOT. fuck you very much, fate. fuck you very much.
