Tachikawa NO JIRETTAI BURO-GU!

Stuff happened in the past few days have got me thinking..(not often that I do so, lol).

Do we think too much?

I mean, seriously. You know how you decide just on the spur of the moment, to do something? And….then you sit down. And START to think. “If I do this, then I’ll be tired. I won’t be able to enjoy tonight’s thing!”, or “Damn, I don’t feel like it. Maybe I’ll do it tomorrow.”

And then everything goes into a downward spiral. Why can’t we just DO IT! Just imagine. Being able to just ask a girl for her number. “What if she rejects me?” or “I don’t think I can do it..”. Goddamnit just go and friggin’ ask the girl! Sure, its just human to rationalise, and thats why, along with that, MOST humans DON’T succeed; they THINK too much.

Thinking is good, but I have to admit that I have seen the errors in that. You start having doubts, you further question your move, and you eventually decide NOT to do so. Thinking is good, but thinking too much isn’t.

…its been 3 hours since I wrote my last paragraph. I have been talking on the phone, and I actually took my own advice. All I can say..its a great load off my chest. It was not easy, but I got it over and done with. See. I actually thought about it, but I didn’t overdo it. I felt that I was keepin’ too many things to myself. I personally admit I’m not really good in expressing myself, but thinking ENOUGH (and not overdoing it) helped me. a LOT.

Seriously? Its 2am. I’m kinda…tired. But, I’m satisfied. Alas, a great burden has been lifted off me. Sweet. Sure hope you guys take my advice yeah? Think, but don’t think too much. Don’t know when to stop thinking before doing something? If you reached a point that you are actually ASKING yourself (hopefully pretty early in the thinking process after reading this), stop. And do whatever you intend to do. You would get a great satisfaction within, and its worth ANYTHING in the world.

Oh, and please do note. Some things DO need thinking, just not the way you are doing it in. Don’t know what I’m talking about? Well, you’re lying to yourself, lol. And remember, think WISE not LONG! Nite!

Ya know, I’m just sitting down here, in a semi-comatose state, typing a blog post. What the hell is wrong with me? I think I have a fever coming on. I am feeling so weakened, so..tired. Just that, I just got this inkling to say something, which I think might be useful to some of you out there..

As some of you might have known, I had been partaking in the quest for THE body. From 105Kg to 77kg, thats a fuckin’ feat in itself. THAT was phase one. Then, now, I’m beginning phase two: the toning stage. Through the utilization of a force greater than what my body usually handles, multiple gravity-opposing forces are used to oppose these forces, targeting the appropriate sections of my body, tightening the skin around my muscles and firming them up quite nicely. Now, this is where it gets interesting. Along with the first few gym visits, accompanied the day after is a muscle-ache effect…and…a slight fever. I am now within that stage, but seriously?

I don’t care. I was fat once. That feeling was not nice; self-confidence greatly lacking, I preferred to stay home more often, only going out with friends on rare occasions. And that too, I greatly debated the pros and cons of staying at home, and going out. I HATED that feeling. People can seriously be cruel ya know? Those minute remarks which they might think are harmless, are actually very sharp and piercing indeed.

“Eh eh cannot sit there lah! Wait the chair break!”, followed by a short round of laughter, or “You are self-sustaining right?”, whilst looking at my stomach, and then followed by more laughter.

It can seriously be damaging, these remarks, no matter how harmless they might seem to be. I don’t hold it against them, truthfully. Society can shape a person’s perspective greatly. Heck, society GOVERNS a person’s perspective. Can’t help it now can I?

Therefore, my aim was to SUPERSEDE expectations society has of people. Normal people are generally averagely-informed, has a certain allocation of languages learnt by the race this person is of, has this certain body mass index, and has a very average fitness. Me? I intend to be VERY well-informed, learn MORE languages then the average Malay (a certified linguist, 5 languages, if possible. At the 3rd and 4th language currently), have a body which is to DIE for (fully-toned six-pack abs, chests, legs, butt, etc. PHASE 2.) and have exceptional fitness (I can safely say that not very many people can swim 3 kilometers (60 laps back and forth) continously in an hour, and I intend to increase my current running speed/stamina and cycling stamina.).

Personally, I’ve had enough of what society has implied onto what its denizens should be like. I am GOING TO GO ALL THE WAY BABY! I’ve lost 28 kilograms, and that has showed me that NOTHING is impossible if you DON’T give up at failures. I’m RENEWING my will to fight. Fever? Screw you. I’m destined for bigger things. IKU ZO! ALL THE WAY!

….ok. Now thats done with, lets talk about my current going-ons of my life. Heh. National Service, a.k.a. chouhei, is on the 10th of June. Tekong Camp 2! Seriously looking forward to it. Fitter, leaner and meaner (ok, hopefully not..) me. IT BEGINS! Also, working on a top-secret pilot project with Grace and Chweng. Lets hope THAT works out well, heh.

Andddd…oh yeah. Project 692^2 (square). My project with one of my school bros, Woei Png (aka NEO LOL). A site showcasing the night sceneries throughout Singapore in full panoramic view (in case you didn’t notice? 692Square is the area of Singapore. Cool huh? ) Akan datang! Also, something related…a site showcasing my college’s key spots I used to hang out in, in full panoramic view AND captions, reminiscing the history of that specific picture.

haaaa and oh yeah, me and one of my friends (Naf) intend to go on a backpacking trip to Malaysia. Johor->Mersing->Tioman->Mersing->Kuantan->Kuala Lumpur->Cameron Highlands-> Penang-> Perlis-> Langkawi->Perlis->Train all the way to Singapore. Woo hoo! Time of departure? Next week, if all goes well. Wish me luck!

And people, please remind me, I seriously need to brush up on my Japanese vocab, grammar and Kanji-memorising. YES! Haha. annndddd..piano-related stuff. I learnt a few new songs, a key nice one includes Utada Hikaru’s Eternally. W00t! Hope to learn Fukuyama Masaharu’s Squall and Gackt’s Kono dare mo inai heya de (Seventh Night Version) soon. And…piano lessons. I need to remind my mum to sign me up for lessons. I’m running out of time..

..I think thats all in my life right now. Been a while since I blogged, whew. That was a load of my chest, lol. My fever’s getting a little higher, think I’m gonna turn in early today. A little paracetemol ought to give me the comfort I so much seeketh. Till the future, Tachi out!