Oh Humble Lake.
by Reizou Tachikawa on Aug.23, 2004, under General
So Sorry. I apologize for leading everyone on this charade. I am not who I say I am these past few years. No one knows me. Not my closest friends. Not even I. So Sorry…
I do not know. I do not care. I just do not know what to believe in. Am I accepted by society? Maybe. Yes. No.
I do not know.
Believe. Do I want to believe that I am inferior? No. Do I really believe that I am inferior? I guess so. I just want to…. Believe?
Perceptions. Did I really not meet them? Should people tell me their perceptions of me? I guess not. I would prefer so, yes I would. Their. Perceptions…
- Tachikawa; In a state of confusion, anger and emotional turmoil.
I feel so insecure. I just don’t know. Why. Sudden dip in my self-esteem.
Well, I did spend some time overlooking the lake from the extreme end of the 16th floor (the level above mine). Let me tell you that it was very, very, very calming and peaceful. The breeze eminating from the lake was very very refreshing. Furthermore, the view I had was really nice. Much better than from the balcony on my level. The darkness just brings out the mysterious calming effect the lake has on me. Micheal Buble on the headphones added to the effect. Spent well over 20 mins staring into nothing.at.all.
I think it lifted my spirits up a little bit. Thanks, oh humble lake. I owe you one.
