Freefall Emotional Suicide.
by Reizou Tachikawa on Aug.23, 2004, under General
Ok. Do me a favour. Someone shoot me. Right_in_the_FACE. Please. This is just so stupid.
I somehow feel that inferiority is inherent; in-built within my consciousness. Its very discouraging; to feel that you are way inferior than the people around you. Sure, what if you’re tall. I’m like, ‘WHATEVER’, I’m still inferior. You know what? Fuck that man. I just don’t know what in the world is wrong with me nowadays.
Its like. ‘hey MAN wassup! Do you have a girlfriend yet?’. Its so irritating. I usually go ‘Uhm, no. So..what’s for lunch?’ and inside I’m like ‘I’m sooo gonna punch your face the moment you let your guard down LOL’. This is the most probable reason for why I feel so inferior; the possibility of being rejected by society makes me want to just punch something/someone. I never thought I would never attain such a level of dejectedness.
Back when I was a kid, everything else was so simple. Me and my close buddies would just hang by the void decks playing soccer or catching, and whenever any couple walked by we would just like agree that we would never be like that. Ever. Childish perceptions. They were so untainted; so pure. Society shapes you. Changes your perceptions; you are bended by the collective will of the people around you. That’s society for you. Ha!
Furthermore, last Sunday’s article on those who’ve ‘Never Been Kissed’ in the Lifestyle section of the Straits Times.was really. Scary. I’m not kidding. Heck. Sure, I might still be 18, I can sure as hell feel the pressure rising up slow and steady. Right. I’m a better person than before. How am I to be viewed by the opposite gender? ‘What a wierdo’, they’d probably say. My face sucks. My body sucks. Someone kill me.
